Depression!

Its been awhile since I wrote in my blog! I guess I've been to preoccupied to do much of anything! I'm finally free of a burden that beens weighing me down for most of my life! I confronted my dad and molesting me as a young girl! I also told quiet a few people about my sexuality! I'm bisexual! I'm free now I can be open and honest with the world! I've never felt like this before! The past several wks I've went to the depths of no return before in my life! I fell to the darkest pits of hell I've ever seen! I can't begin to tell you what I feel other than rage! I've gone thru these past wks with no regrets or regards to what life is like or who I'm hurting! I've stared the devil right in the eyes and told him thank you! I feel like he's got me so wrapped up that I may never find my way out! Just last nite reality hit me about the girl I've been seeing! I thought it was love but really it was the devil taking me for a rough ride thru the firey pits of hell! This girl drug me thru stuff that I've never in my life experienced! Maybe it was gods way of showing what life is like out there if I give up the man I'm married 2! The one that's stuck with me thru it all!!! So I've come to the conclusion that if I don't remove myself from this place I call home for a few days and away from everyone in my life then I might not make it out alive! I had just begun to pick up the pieces of my broken heart from the woman I had been dating for 3 yrs! Its amazing how things happen so quickly that no one knows its happening until its to late! I've always been the one giving out encouaraging words but it took 2 very special people in my life to show me and encouarage me to get away from the devil before its to late! Thanks cheryl and dana! Without you 2 I'm not sure where I'd be! Homeless and heartbroken! I just feel like right now god used you 2 in away to show me! Thanks! Now with all this said, I feel like I'm on the road to recovery just taking one day at a time! I'm getting tired and thumb is about to fall off! Cause I'm typing from phone! Peace, love and happiness!