Anniversary and other thoughts

December 6th marked the day 8yrs ago I said until death do us part to a man that has seen me so strung out/stressed out to my happiest times in my life! He's been there thru my 4yr affair with another woman and still loved me no matter what! He loves me and never let me go! I couldn't ask for a better person to be with! It took me a few years to see that he was truly the best thing that ever happened to me! Not only did it mark a happy day it also marked a sad day! One year ago I lost the only thing close to a grandfather I've ever known! He wasn't even blood! He was step but loved me like his own! Its not every day that step ppl take u and love u like there own! I miss him dearly but most of all he's much better off and he's with his lovely wife!
Sometimes I've been told I have a way with words that can make u smile, cry or get fighting mad! Tonight I posted a status update on facebook and someone said christy you have a way with ur words! My status said guard your heart with walls, guard your feelings with windows! Never let anyone into your heart without letting them see your true feelings! That's my feelings! Its the truth just as never say I love u to someone unless u mean it from ur heart! You can never truly love someone else if you truly don't love yourself! Because self love will never break your heart, never leave you hanging on to something that's not gonna happen! It'll never make you out to be the fool! It'll always be there when everyone else has gone on and left u standing alone!
In a less than 36 hours ill be spending my birthday weekend with a lifelong friend hitting up the casinos! I'm super excited, and yes I'm gonna miss my husband but its gonna be so much fun I can't wait! Well blog my fingers are bout to fall off from typing this on my phone! Good night all!