Where oh where to begin...

Days go by that I think you know I wish I could do this or that! But one thing that I really wish I could do is talk to my grandmother one last time! Just listen to her sweet voice tell me she loves me and let her just talk about what ever! I've been talking to her a lot I know she hears but I want to hear her! As the days get shorter and the nights longer I find myself looking at the sky for an answer! But I don't see one! One day I will!! 

I've been searching for a "friend" just ain't seem to found her yet! I guess it's just not meant to be which is good in a way and bad in a way too! I want someone that I can hang out with and go places with without Corey thinking something is going on! He swears that I've got someone on the side when I don't! I ain't been with anyone since back the beginning of the summer! I just don't really care about the sex part it's other things I want this person for like just holding me, cuddling, laughing, listening to me bitch and just being a friend! I mean I have lots of friends but I need more than just that, I need someone that understands when I need to complain and understands my complaint and just doesn't say oh I know or i understand cause really unless you live in my shoes then you really don't understand! But anyways if your reading this and think you know someone or you are that someone then please let me know! Cause I need a hug right now and no one to hug me! Anyways blog I'm gonna cut this one off right here! Forever and always Peace!