THINKING!!!!!!

Seems like last week you and I was having the best time and the all  of a sudden things went down hill fast and now we are back to having the time of our lifes again! Sometimes I miss all those times we had when we'd sit around and talk and just hang out! Then there's times I think of how far we've come and how far we've got to go! At times my mind wonders back to the days I could sleep in your arms and not have a care in the world! Those days have passed and those days are just memories we made that play at random times thru this picture machine I have on my shoulders! It hurts at times When I think of how we used to be but the frown quickly turns to a Smiley face when I hear the excitement in your voice when your new love is coming over or calling or what not! It makes me happy and sad because I used to be That girl! You say I still make u smile but my heart doesn't seen it and my mind keeps playing those scenes from time to time! I guess its better that I keep my feelings surpressed and my mind will be at ease Maybe! I guess there comes a time that I just gotta keep moving and never look back! I hope That you will truly understand me and not just say You do! Every human has to come to terms sometimes and realize it just wasn't meant to be! But one must also realize that the one their with isn't truly with them Because They love them! I'm just an outsider looking in and from my stand point the new person in Your life is playing Your emotions like a musician playing a guitar! But it takes one to finally see that and when u do see it I hope its not to late and that you've truly put Your guard up! I hope that my instincts are wrong but I feel they aren't! I can read some ppl very well! I hope that you'll take my advice one day and truly sit down with the new one and truly tell her how u feel! But I know You pretty well You have the mentality that if it ain't broke don't fix it But I'm here to tell you it is broke so now is the time to fix it! Just saying! As I've said before I gain more pleasure out of saying I told u so in the end than I do any other time! As Ive said before I truly wish that my dear friends and family would Listen to me for once and truly listen and do what I say! But its like my words aren't good enough and my words are just words with no meaning What so ever! But I guess since I'm no famous writer then the words I write or truly just nothing like I've been told a thousand times! Life does go on and on and on! Good night blog!