STRESSFUL DAY!

As I lay here and reflect on my day today it just doesn't seem to get any better! First, my dog I think is dying, secondly the woman that I confessed my love for and too has just turned her life around and is all religious and thinks she's not Going to heaven unless she does this and this! All the while condeeming me for not wanting to change! I'm Sorry that I loved you more than just a friend and you lead me too believe it was more than just a friend thing When I laid in your bed and you spoke these very words to me! This want be the last time! But the next day your all like your feelings have been cut off and your not ever gonna have those feelings again! Hmmm didn't know that it was like a light switch flip on and off by choice! Cause honey I'm here to tell you if that's the case then I'd switch mine off long time ago! But as you put it when God gets ahold of you you will know it! Yep that's true but I feel like your being feed the wrong message! Hmmm I'm making changes for the better and I know What your problem is your scared that if You come around me then gods gonna get a hold of you! Nope I'm not scared of you only person that scares me is God and When my day comes that he's ready to take me he will! If I get casted out of heaven then I deserved it! Its like with anything else we all sin! We all make mistakes but how we ask for forgiveness isn't anyone's business but ours and God's! Not yours AND not Joe blow on the street! I haven't said one cross thing about you that I ain't said to you personally! I ain't said or did not one thing that I ain't done to ur personally! So go a head and say oh run me in the ground and talk bad about me cause that's all your Good for! Nope I'm good for lots of things and those things aren't any of your damn business! You've been jealous of my life since we broke up over 2 yrs ago! How many friends do you have that you ask their every move? How many friends do you text every night AND tell them good night love you or Good Morning love you! You think that feelings and stuff can be cut off and on like a light switch Well yours might Can but Christy's doesn't work like that! Ive told you two different times today leave me alone now I'm making it worldwide known leave me alone!
Now with that out of the Watching now back to the regularly scheduled blog! I went away from Sunday night until Tuesday afternoon and had a little time to reflect and get things in order in my head! It took a little while to get it all figured out but I've just about got it all figured out! First, I finally saw the true person She was, secondly I've just about seen the true person Corey is! He tells me while I'm gone oh I miss you so much but your first day off that I'm home you decide that your friend needs your help! That to me tells me oh I just wanted you home so I knew What you was really doing! Well if you wanna know so much just ask! Cause ill gladly tell you! I looked at women asked a few for a one night stand and Then wasted 30 dollars and came home! See I ain't gotta hide shit like he does! His porn! I'm sure while I was gone it was looked at a 1000 times! But life goes on! OK blog my arm hurts and so does my thumb talk at u later!