Fathers Day, visit with friend, etc

Its been a little while since I've blogged! This past sunday was fathers day! I felt like it was time to show my father just how useless, worthless, deadbeat he was! I laid in bed and wrote him a little letter via email! I just laid all my feelings out! He called me that day apologizing and telling me he loved me! Its a little late dontcha think! Well, lifes too short to dewell on past! So, I also felt the need to email a very special man and woman in my life to just let them know how much they made me feel and how much I've appreciated them! They called me and told me thank you and wanted to tell me they loved me! I went on monday and got my haircut so I dropped by to see them! I had a very nice visit with them! These ppl are the parents to the woman I was in a realationship with for 3 1/2 yrs! When I pulled up memories come flooding my brain! I almost couldn't handle it but I did! The memories of her and I kept poping in my head! They kept playing over and over! It was almost like I was reliving it again! I even fought back tears several times, I hid emotions just so no one will see them! It was hard but I made it thru it! I can't say that I don't still love her cause I do just not in love! She's found the right one for her! I wish them both best of luck! Nuthing but happiness! Its been a great wk so far! Its the little things I miss bout our relationship, the companionship, the being able to talk to someone that understood me, shared some of the same passions that I did! Also. The times we shared intimatly and non intimatly! But I'm happy in my life right now! He makes me happy I don't see me finding another woman anytime soon! But, before I go I want to say that why live in the darkness of hell, when you can live in the lightness of heaven! Good nite blog! Peace, love and happiness!

a tribute to a long lost friend!

A little detail about my friend marty! 14 yrs ago on may 23 I lost my best friend! We had been thru so much together! No she didn't die its just that we both went our seperate ways! I thought about her over the years but never slowed down to find her! Until the bright sunshiny day I was off work, playing on facebook and had a friends request from her! My heart stood still for a moment! I took a deep breathe and said lord is this my long lost best friend! He just looked down and said yes my child! It was the happiest day of my life! I'd never thought I'd ever find her again! I did! Thank you lord! Now u know a little bout her here's an email I sent her! Its my words nuthing copied nuthing like that! Enjoy! Good night and God bless!


Over the years we've changed, gotten older, lost a few hairs, some have turned gray, but one things for sure I never forgot u and you never forgot me! Its been years but it seems like yesterday that we saw each other! That we was still in high school! Its been a lot of water under the bridge! We've both experienced things that we needed each other for mentally and physically! I hate I've missed the birth of ur babies, the time of sorrow when u needed me most! But it was Gods will that he brought us back together! He has a way of bring two ppl back together when one or both needs it most! Marty, our busy life styles made us grow apart but this time we are slowing down to smell the roses! We only got one life to live why live it in the darkness of hell when u can live it in the light of heaven! It takes years to form the friendship we have and only hours to forget the times we had! Over the years I've searched for someone like u to be there for me like u had been! Just like u I'm sure u searched for someone like me! Its human nature we all do it! But I never found that person until that day u walked back in my life! My heart was whole again! The piece that went missing finally found its way back! Thanks for the true friendship we have! Its times like this I wish we lived closer! Cause when ur done reading ur gonna be crying and I wish I was there to whip the tears away! Just remember this I never lost hope of finding you again nor did I lose the love that I had for u then and the love that's gotten stronger since we've been talking! No matter how bad life gets remember I love u just the way u are! You never have to change for me cause ur just as beautiful today as you was that hot night in 1996 when I seen u last! Keep ur head up and never let anyone steal ur joy! I'm here to protect u from the storm and love u unconditionally and give u what ever you might need! I love u marty lynn baker! If no one else cares I do!

Your best friend,Christy lynn holland