As I lay in my bed typing this out on my blackberry! I'm in pain from my neck to my toes! Its only getting worse with time! Maybe one day ill be well! Its been a few wks or days since I've posted a blog! I've been doing a lot of thinking! I have a few ppl in my life that if and when I have to quit my job and live at home on disability! That would call, text or even drop by atleast once a wk! These ppl I love dearly and can truly call my best friends! Its not easy making best friends when you've been hurt before! Long story not in mood to go into detail! Its been a crazy couple of wks just with life in general! Work, home, life its all crazy! But as I was told along time ago if first you don't make then pick urself up dust urself off and try again! Its been a great experience! Well blog I've come the conclusion that life is what u make it! I've pondered that saying so many times that its almost like second nature to me! I just don't seemm to quite get why I'm having to deal with ol arthur at 33 yrs old! He's gonna kill me or I'm gonna be legless! Thanks to a good cold beer and a nice draw off that cigarette I'm gonna sleep great tonight! Just a little alcohol never hurt a sole! I keep telling em if I have to go to hell for my ways I'm taking my cooler full of beer! That's all I need to survive the heat! I've already made friends with the devil! But anywho I need to get off here thumb is numb! Good nite! Peace, love and cold beer!

new begining

A much needed relief finally came my way in the best way possible! I couldn't ask for a more pleasant begining than the one I got today! I've wait almost 4 yrs for her to finally realize its to late to turn back the hands of time! I hope she can life the life that she wants without regrets! I'm picking up the pieces and rekindling the flame that still burns for my husband! I couldn't begin to tell u why I cheated on him in the first place especially with that crazy bitch! I truly believe she's been brain washed and led off the deep end with no floaties! But, if she was drowning right in front of me I think I'd have to say I'd keep on going and not stop to help! She's so far gone there's no helping her! I'm not one to be so cold hearted but you have one shot if u shoot me then its over! Thanks to my good friend cheryl that told me to keep away I finally listened! Well, now my only problem is hoping that I don't have to have knee replacement surgery! I feel so bad it hurts so bad that I just want to cut it off! Good nite blog! I'm off to lala land!