thanks to good friends

I'm sitting outside in the cool breeze that has made me feel like a human again! I've taken somethings for granted of this life time but then don't we all take things for granted? Well one thing that I cherish the most in this life is the good friends that I have made of this life time! Last night I got to see first hand what good friends are! I was invited to a kindergarden graduation party for a special person that I don't even know that well! But I have seen him like other kids grow up thru pictures! Its amazing how much a person learns bout someone thru a photo! Its also amazing how much we can fall in love with a person and they never know what the truly mean to you! I love my good friends with all my little pea picking heart can love them! Thanks to you all and you know who you are I have made it thru this life with a big heart and an open mind! So as I sit here and listen to the sounds of nature it just makes me feel like the person I want to be! Never have I told anyone this but right now, I'm tired! I'm hopelessly floating around with nothing holdin me down! The ra is killing me dearly! I just feel like giving up like I have said before! But I'm truly not a giver upper ill fight toe to toe and eye to eye with what I feel is what christy wants! Hope you all have a good day! Talk later!

happiness

Can be found many different ways! Some find it by drinking, playing video games, or even just have a conversation with someone! As I said earlier in a blog that I was looking for something! This weekend I found it! Happiness is what my body was longing for! I found it doing what I love that's fishing! Now I'm asking myself if that's what makes you happy then why don't you do it more often! Or maybe try to find it somewhere else! The computer adds a little happiness in my life but I feel it also cause a few problems in my life too! Now its time for christy to figure out what else can make me happy! I need to figure out how to make christy happy! I feel like times I'm losing everyone around me cause I'm not happy! But that's part of life! Good night world! Tomorrows a new day!

have you ever?

Felt like your body was searching for something that you can't seem to find? Well, this very moment in time I have that feeling! I can't tell you why I can't tell you what nor can I tell how I'm gonna find it! Bút what I can tell you is that we have learned many lessons in life that have taught us something for greater than anything else in life can! I feel like if I could just fly away to an unknown place away from the world, phone, computer and finer things in life I might feel like the person I need to be! I'd find the time to search my heart, soul and every inch of my body for the answer I'm looking for! The other day I had the pleasure of having supper with a very couragous woman who has is fighting a battle that most people will not ever have to indur! She fighting breast cancer! Thanks to you nita I can feel proud when I say that I have met a person that doesn't care what people think bout her hair! She makes you look at her and say that's a strong woman to go out with out a wig on or hat on and be who she wants to b with out any cares to what people might care or think! Thanka Nita for giving me the strength to care on when I might want to give up! Its just a matter of searching for that person you wanna be! Thanks for the support and the caring that will come! Its something only christy can find! Good night world!

.................................. never ending..............

I have a love for somethings that seem to never end. Then i have hate for somethings that come so quick that I forgot that i even hated them. With that being said, I have a love for friendship, fishing, my husband, fishing, my family, camping, fishing, my job(some days), and fishing. Out of all the things I hate the love outways them all. Thanks to the friends in my life, I have overcome some much need things to overcome. They have stood by me thru it all. The biggest supporter has been of course my husband. He has supported me when, he could of walked out of my life. But did he No.. He stood there and took the abuse that I threw at him and kept on walking. Missy has been thru some abuse over these past three years that no one in this life should have to ever go thru.. Thanks to you both. My family has seen me sad, happy and even to the point i just want to give up. Yea my mom has been thru a lot of pain staking years of my life. But she too supported me thru it all. Thanks mom.. My dad on the other hand has been there in his only little way. He has been there in my thoughts and has helped me become a strong woman. But thanks to you too dad. Now, some friends i have made have seen me at times when i have been the best person i possible could be. Then some have seen me the total bitch that i am. I can be a bitch and I know..... But, the one thing that makes me the happiest is Fishing, i can't tell you why but then again i know why. It makes me feel free, i can be who i wanna be with out any judgement at all. I can be who i have longed to be. Thanks to the world of a fishing pole. Its what i want and its what i feel makes me the happiest. But i wanted to take the time to thank the people that have made a difference in my life. thanks for the support the pain staking times i have given you all. thanks for it all. Thanks for helping me out of my lowest points in my life that I can possiblly be. thanks.. thanks for it all. Well, i have to get in bed and the cats are fighting and one is peeing on my side of the bed and im about to kill them both. gotta change sheets one more time.... good night world. and good day to you..