Tornado pictures day of

Been a long time

Where to begin, April 28 I thought that I had lost my house my husband and my life! A tornado ripped thru my little town and took a few homes with it and sparred all of our lives! It's amazing looking back on that day almost a month ago of what was there just the day before that's now nothing is left! It's sad, it's heartbreaking, it's all changed! Nothing is the same, but the lives are still here to rebuild! For a few weeks I hated to walk out my door of my home because I was reminded of that day every time I did! Devastation was the word to describe what it looked like! But I'm moving on just like we all are one day at a time and one moment at a time! The word that day that stands true to this town is Tupelo Spirit! That very day people I didn't even know made sure I was ok! Helped in ways you wouldn't believe! And come from places far from here to help us rebuild, remove debris and help us find a way! It was heart felt and overwhelming at the number of people that stepped up and said I'm here what you need! It's all about the tupelo spirit that runs through this town! Thank you couldn't and can't be said enough to the support, love, care and understanding that was shown! One month ago tomorrow my life and the lives of us all in tupelo changed forever! Just 3 yrs and 1 day from the time that the town of Smithville lost 16 people and their whole town! Tornados don't care where they land they just land! Count your blessings daily and ask God for forgiveness daily because tomorrow isn't promised but today was given!!

I learned a lesson also since my last blog and that's to trust no one with your thoughts, actions or life! Unless you truly know that they are truly who they say they are! I lose a good friend by words that wasn't even spoken by me but was said I said them! She and I worked together for a long time, a year ago her son shot himself and I couldn't bring myself to go to the funeral or the visitation because that friend had shunned me away with out a word of why, or a word of anything! It hurts because when she finally told me why and who said it it hurt me because I was really going to leave my husband for this woman and then she goes behind my back and tells this good friend something that I never said! I've not spoken to the person that lied and it's best I don't! Because I've got a few choice words for her and if I ever see her it's not gonna be pretty! I've yet to see the good friend because I'm not sure I'm ready to face her knowing that she believed someone else and shunned me away for something so stupid! I guess it's not my first time experiencing this but this time it hurt worse! I've moved on and shall not allow this to hold me back any longer! Peace bitch! 

I also realized that my husband no matter how much I might hate him at times I truly down deep inside love him! He's my world and I'm trying my best to make me his world! I was talking to a woman and had fallen for her but I realized really quick that the feelings wasn't mutual! She got married to the man she had been with for a little while all the while telling me she wasn't sure she's ever marry him!! Then she found a new friend and started pulling away from me but she says it's because I said I just couldn't cheat on my husband is why she pulled away! Well the truth came out and I knew all along what the problem was! I pulled away when she married him because I didn't want to come in between him and her! But really I wasn't the one she wanted I guess because now she's not with her husband and she so in love with this other woman! It's ok because it taught me a lesson that my first priority should be my husband! So peace to you too! 

I have a friend from my hometown that I've known since I lives there! He and I would talk when I worked at the grocery store or we would chat at his place of business when I'd be in there visiting someone! We wasn't close but we have since became close! I honestly can't say that without him, and my counselor I wouldn't be here today! I was going down a hill so fast it wasn't even funny! I have to say that missy did help some too but Corey acted like it was no big deal so what your depressed your falling off the cliff! But back to Chris! He's amazing he's what I call my best guy friend! He listens to me bitch about Corey! He's not out to screw me and I'm not out to screw him! I've listened to him talk about his job and sometimes his home life! Although come to think of it I don't know much about it! But that's ok! He cares enough to notice when I'm having a bad day to text or message me and say hey what's wrong are you ok! Not just anyone will do that not even my family! But you know that's another story too! Life is about living it and not worrying about what others think! Because if you waste your time worrying about what others think then you've wasted your precious time that you could of spent doing something you love! 

I guess that's all blog!! Good night!!