never give up

That's a phase that I hold close to my heart! I was told alone time ago that I should never give up! Now I've been blessed over the years with people that have helped me to not ever give up! There's been many times in my life that I wanted to give up but never did! When you feel down the first thing you want to do is give up or give in! We all do it! Its human nature! I've come to the conclusion that life is too short to hang around waiting on a miracle! Althought I know they happen everyday! I learned the hard way that friends come and go quickly! But, when the friend that came and went sent me an email telling me shed had a stroke! I felt a little guilty cause I could of caused it! But over time shell get better I just told her in the email reply to never give up hope! Cling on to it forever! An old friend of mine one time told me to pick up my feet cause tomorrow was a new day and I'd need them shoes to do a lot of walking! Little did I know that tomorrow has really come true! I do a lot of walk all the time! I miss my old friends! Some come and gone but none are ever forgotten! I've made many friends, people I call friends and true friends but some come in like the wind and they gone again! True friends stay for the long haul thru your tough times, sad times and most importantlt thru you angry times! Just a friend is someone I call that comes in for about a month or so and is gone again! Everyone that I've ever called a friend has made some kind of impression on my life! It might of been something they said or did! Mostly people do things that I remember the most! Its been a long time since I've had a true friend that I could trust with my life and they wouldn't do anything with my life! The only one that could is gone! But, life is precious its time for me to quit thinking about the future and living for the present! Past is history, present is now and future may never come! But never give up hope that oneday the future might be here! So with that said never give up on anything in your life! Never give in to pain, or suffering! So take this blog and do with what you want! I'm sure you might rethink somethings! Just never give up hope! Its never to late until its gone! Good nite! I'm food deprived and sleepy!

wow!!

You know sometimes in life we just never know who we are gonna meet! Who might need our smiling face to cling on for one more day! I feel like sometimes I need every waken moment with my friends that I have! We never know when it might be there time to go so cling on as long as you can! Life is a precious gift and I cherish every moment with them! Thanks kiersten for standing by me for all you've done! Its been a true blessing for you to come in my life! Thanks to my family for truly standing by me for ever! You've been a great tree to lean on! Thanks! I love you all! With out friends even the ones that are gone we still have to thank them to for showing us something! It just wasn't meant to be that your not in my life anymore! Just like the sun, friends come and go to fill a purpose! Thanks to everyone! Good nite blog! Its been a wonderful day! Wow!!!

where do i begin

There's things in my life that I've kept from many people! How do u tell someone the things that happened in ur life that they have no idea about! But, right now I'm at a time in my life that I have to think about somethings! Its just gonna take the time for my body to come to terms with my thoughts! When my body says its ready then ill be ready! Ill find out a lot over these next few hours, days or months who really cares about me and who's my true friends are! We don't know until something happens and you find out! I hope and pray that love will keep my head a float! Thanks to the true friends that are willing to stand by me! I love u all! Thanks!

y am i still living?

Sometimes, I ponder that very question! Right now I don't know how I feel! I'm hurt, upset and loved! Being called stupid by someone that once said the loved me hurts, being called it by the person that's stood by me thru a lot hurts worse! I've be called stupid all my life by someone or somebody! Once you hear it enough you begin to believe it! Maybe that's y it hurts so much! I just don't understand how anyone can call anyone stupid! I might not be the smartest person in the world but I'm not stupid either! The thoughts of suicide have flooded my head and then I just think you know that's really stupid of u to do that! She I am stupid! Life is hard when u lose friends, family and even lovers! But, I learned the hard way you must pick up the pieces slowly or else its gonna cause more trouble! Just how I feel at this moment! Thanks for listening!