Depression!

Its been awhile since I wrote in my blog! I guess I've been to preoccupied to do much of anything! I'm finally free of a burden that beens weighing me down for most of my life! I confronted my dad and molesting me as a young girl! I also told quiet a few people about my sexuality! I'm bisexual! I'm free now I can be open and honest with the world! I've never felt like this before! The past several wks I've went to the depths of no return before in my life! I fell to the darkest pits of hell I've ever seen! I can't begin to tell you what I feel other than rage! I've gone thru these past wks with no regrets or regards to what life is like or who I'm hurting! I've stared the devil right in the eyes and told him thank you! I feel like he's got me so wrapped up that I may never find my way out! Just last nite reality hit me about the girl I've been seeing! I thought it was love but really it was the devil taking me for a rough ride thru the firey pits of hell! This girl drug me thru stuff that I've never in my life experienced! Maybe it was gods way of showing what life is like out there if I give up the man I'm married 2! The one that's stuck with me thru it all!!! So I've come to the conclusion that if I don't remove myself from this place I call home for a few days and away from everyone in my life then I might not make it out alive! I had just begun to pick up the pieces of my broken heart from the woman I had been dating for 3 yrs! Its amazing how things happen so quickly that no one knows its happening until its to late! I've always been the one giving out encouaraging words but it took 2 very special people in my life to show me and encouarage me to get away from the devil before its to late! Thanks cheryl and dana! Without you 2 I'm not sure where I'd be! Homeless and heartbroken! I just feel like right now god used you 2 in away to show me! Thanks! Now with all this said, I feel like I'm on the road to recovery just taking one day at a time! I'm getting tired and thumb is about to fall off! Cause I'm typing from phone! Peace, love and happiness!

happy birthday mamaw

On this day back in 1924 a very special lady in my life was born! It doesn't seem right for her to have been gone from us so early in life! Today she would of been 86! I miss her more and more everyday! Its been a life to remember the good, bad and ugly! She never wanted any of us to want for anything! If she had it we had it, if it was hers it was ours! In april of 01 the lord called this angel home! It was her time, she'd done her duty to this great country we live in, she'd raised 9 kids all alone because her husband died in 73! She had a heart of gold and a sense of humor that'd knock ur socks off! I just hope that today she celebrated this day with everyone that's gone before her, and after her! I know she's having a blast! With time our wounds of loss are healed, but never ever forgotten! They leave a lasting memory and one that we will forever cherish! Thanks for the memories!! May you rest in peace my best friend! One I could tell the world to and knew she'd never tell anyone! Good night blog! I miss you mamaw! Tell'em all I said hello!