Boggles my brain

I guess that the way I was raised wasn't the way everyone was raised! It boggles my mind the way I see kids, adult kids treating their parents! It hurts my feelings do many times to see grown ass kids watching their mom or dad or both do everything in the house, and hold a job! Its like this damn get up off your lazy ass and do something! I promise u that your computer will Be there When your done helping out! Another thing that really makes me fearous is that you want to complain cause nuthing is done or that you can't do this cause you had to help pay a bill! But your mom lives pay check to pay check on a monthly income, pays all your bills for you! Cell phone, lights, water and all that! If you really could see how you act Maybe you would straighten up a little! Maybe not but a little! I guess that I had to learn those things and fend for myself so many times That it just comes natural to me! Maybe one day ill.come over and show u a thing or too! Ill show you How to get up off your lazy ass and do something! Ugh! Peace out

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As I lay in bed cause I'm freezing cold and my right ovary feels like someones sitting on it pushing it down! I reflect on all the things I've done in my life and the people that's gone before me! 10yrs ago I lost my best friend/grandmother! She knew more about me than I knew about myself! The good lord called her home and I just wish somedays I could call her up and just say hello! Life is so short that we often forget the little things in life! One thing is for sure that she's missed more and more! She never got to meet the man I married, didn't get to see Scott get married either or heather graduate high school! Things like that just makes you wanna cry! I miss her and can hear her telling me this or that or something that I probably at the time cared nuthing about! Now I wished she was here cause somedays I just need someone to talk to about life's problems when know one else wants to listen! Ya know! Life like the troubles and ups and Downs! But heaven doesn't have a phone or a staircase so I could walk up there and knock on the door! Cause I sure would! Thanks for reading off to sleep I go!

Feel the need to say something!

Times have been tough around the holland house! It'll be a year in june since I quit my job! My RA is taking over my body! Coreys dad isn't doing well! I hope that the prayers I've asked for will help! I just feel like he's not gonna make it much longer!! Sometimes it takes my breathe away to see him laying there! I have a friend that has been like a father to me that it hurts me to see him suffer too! I don't know what to do to help him or anything! I feel like I'm not able to do anything! But all I can do is pray! That's all I feel like will help! Life goes on as they say! Its baseball season and I'd love nothing more than to go see the Atlanta braves play one more time! One of my dreams is to see every major league team play at their home stadium! I might not like them all but I think it would be neat! Well blog I don't Have much more to say! Peace!

Sardis trip

On Tuesday we left tupelo headed to sardis to camp and fish! I had my infusion that am so we didn't get to leave until after lunch! I enjoyed our time away from the world and the house! We had a pretty good week didn't argue but one time! Luckily it wasn't my fault this time! But he did apologize so it made it all better! Since my infusion I ain't really felt like doing nuthing but sleeping! I ain't wanted to even get out of camper! I did go with corey up to the spillway and fish a couple of days! Thought I lost my fishing pole over the rail at the spillway but a sweet older deaf guy saved it for me! Couldn't think him enough! There are still sweet thoughtful people out there! We came home today and I went to step up in camper to get some things and my bad knee popped and I cried and cried! Guess its time to wear my brace 24/7 now! We got home and I was going thru the mail and had a check from walgreens for my profit sharing! Now I got a few dollars to go to the casino on! I think I'm gonna take my free rooms they sent me and go away by myself for a few days! Just me! Time to think and put my life in to prospective! Well, as I lay here and type this out on my phone my fingers are getting tired so I better close this! Good night blog ill blog more soon! Peace