Weekend getaway

Just returned from a weekend getaway with my husband! I can't say it started out good because it didn't! It started out like most things do with a huge argument! But after we got to the cabin it Got better! I took a little nap and then we went out on the boat! I fished a little but was bored out of my mind most of the time! I was so bored I made up a song! I got the line you got the pole we going fishing at the local watering hole! I know but I was bored! Then I decided that I'd just get out the pole with a crappy jig on it! Before that as I was singing Corey caught a bass and I leaned over the edge of boat and picked it up, took it off the hook and put in livewell! Then I started saying we got a fish LOL! Then I picked up pole with crappie jig on it and was just playing with it! As we was coming up to the break water wall at the Marina I threw it out and was just reeling in like I'd lost my best friend cause I wasn't really trying and Guess What! The line got tight and I said I got a fish! So I reeled it in and it was a catfish and I was so happy that you'd thought it was my first ever fish! I started singing my version of the song on the new little rascals movie! That goes Like this I got a dollar, I got a dollar today! So my version was I got a fish, I caught a fish today! As I was jumping around the boat like a little kid! Hehe! I'm crazy I know it!
The other day I had an appt with a psychologicalist for the disability people! It was the weirdest thing I've ever done in my life! He told me Your only here cause your taking lexapro! So he asked a few questions and then I was done! Its crazy! I hope to hear something soon from them Maybe its a here's your check! Your disabled! But if its like others ill get denied the first time! But there's so many people that have it that truly don't need it! That the ones that do need it can't get it! But life goes on!
As I was backing the boat up it sounded like something broke under my truck! The steering was crazy it made an awful noise and then it got really tight! So I guess it'll go in shop Wednesday and we will see what's up with it! I hope nothing major but I did pick at Corey and told him Maybe that's a sign we need a new truck LOL! Well he wasn't happy bout that LOL! Well blog is time to close this blog! Have a great week!
Peace!

Failure

Failure refers to the state or condition of not meeting a desirable or intended objective, and may be viewed as the opposite of success.
Many times in my life I feel like I'm not the person I want to be so I feel like a failure! No one will ever understand why and how I feel this way! Times its like no one wants to be around me! Its times like right now that I feel this way! Because Corey always seems to have something to do when he's off work now that I'm home all the time! He Never has a moment for Me!  When we do have a moment we fuss and fight and it hurts me to no end! So I feel like I've failed as a wife! Sometimes I feel as if he thinks since I can't work I'm not good enough anymore! Life will go on just as it has all these years! Well blog I've talked enough! The picture is of the one thing right now that makes me smile! Little Ian Emery! He's the cutiest little man I know that has stolen my heart! Aunt Christy loves you Ian!  Peace!

Pep talks

Many times I feel compelled to give people a little pep talk to help them see what's going on or just to tell them its gonna be OK! Sometimes I feel like people come to me for advice on certain things and most of the time I give them the advice they need! Today a friend called me and said she was hurt by something her mom said and I just told her like I've told my husband several times before the ones that sit in judgment of others are going to the place they say I'm going for being something or doing something! Then later tonight I got a text from another friend that she was single and I just told her that it takes many broken roads to lead you to the right road! When love is found you'll know it! It'll slap you so hard that you'll feel it every time you turn around! Its the truth I'm living proof that it takes broken roads to realize that true love was right in front of me! Little did I know that it was staring back at me just waiting for me to live out my little fantasy world I was living in! So I feel like I might be called by God to give advice to people when they need it! It might not be what They wanna hear but I feel its What needs to be said! We don't know our plan he has for us so we just have to wait until the time is right! When he says the time is now is when you know its the right thing to say! So remember before you speak hasty about something or someone! Because you could be just as bad as the one you was just fussing about that hurt you! Never say something that you might need to take back later! Things are said out of anger, fear, hatred, and just because! Remember think before you speak you never know who's listening and watching to see what your doing to hold it against you one day! Remember that! Good Night blog! I'm outta here! Here's a picture of my new nephew he was upset cause they put clothes on him! LOL! He wants to be naked! He's so precious!

My new nephew

I've never been this excited about a baby in my life! But when my life long friends daughter said that her baby would call me aunt christy it excited me to no end! She was supposed to have a little girl which I was really excited about but instead when she had to have a c - section yesterday she came out a he! He was born on march 4, 2011 @ 4:34pm weighing 6lbs 6.3oz and 18 iinches long! His name is Ian Emery Smith! I have a picture on my phone but he's upside down and my phone want rotate him! So ill post it but beware he's upside down! I'm so excited I can't wait til I get to hold him and take more pictures of him! He's got curly reddish brown hair! Amazing how much a baby lights up your life since I'm not able to have any kids! Hope my brother and sister in law will have one soon so I can spoil it too! I can't wait until the next one is born! Well have a good night!

Happy Birthday

This day marks my husbands 37 birthday! I've had the honor of sharing 8 birthdays with him! Every one has been different this one will not be and different! I love him and hope that he has the best day ever! Today we shopped for his birthday present and he got a new fish finder for his boat! I told him it better work and it better put me on some monsters! I'm ready to try out my new lure that fell in the buggy today! If jumped right off the shelf and said please take me home you don't have me! I'm your favorite color! Purple! Hmm so u know what its sitting on table waiting patinetly to be reunited with others like it in my wore out tackle box! So, I just want to say thank you baby for loving me and allowing me to share 8 bdays with u! I lobe u!

Thinking.....

For the first time in many months I'm not posting a mobile blog tonight. I'm actually sitting down at the computer and typing this out on a normal keyboard. Sometimes when I blog its when I'm laying in the bed because I can't sleep. Today was a pretty good day, I got my infusion for my RA which according to the doctor is doing pretty good right now. We will know more in a few days when all the blood work comes back. This time like last month they blew out my vein again but this time wasn't because of some asshole of a nurse that didn't know her ass from a whole in the ground this time was because as the nurse stuck me my vein decided that it wanted to move. I wasn't mad this time because it wasn't her fault. She moved to the other hand and first try got the IV started. She gave me my pretreat which consist of 2 Tynenol, 1 Benadryl and a steroid shot. Usually, I wait before I fall asleep until they actually start my meds today, I didn't even know she had come in there and hung the bag up or started it. I was out like a light. She said i told her my name and all that but I don't remember a thing. Wouldn't woke up when i did if she didn't cut the light back on to start my last 30 mins. I said you just now starting my meds and she said No Ms Holland you have been asleep for an hour. I was like wow. It was crazy i was just tried i guess. I go back in one month to get it again. Ok thats all about my day.
Last weekend on sunday not the one that just passed the one before that. We had to rush Corey's dad to the VA in memphis because he wasn't doing well and had already been told he his bone marrow wasn't making blood so he was getting blood transfusion and stuff. So we get him to VA about 12 am on monday morning, we sat there until about 3:30am, they was going to keep him over night and i didn't see the need for us all to be sitting there doing nuthing. So I drove me, corey and corey's brother home at 330 am. We get home about 530 or so we go to bed and got up about 1pm on monday afternoon. We called to check on his dad and he was doing better they had given him some blood. THey did a CT scan on his head again to see if the tumor from before had come back or a new was there. well, a new one is there. but he is too weak to have another surgery. Corey and his brother left on wednesday morning going camping for one night at sardis. I went to my life long friends Mark and Margie's House and had supper with them. It was good too. I missed corey and he missed me but it was good for us to have a few days apart. I think every couple needs some time apart from time to time. Thursday Corey and Derek go up to memphis to see their dad at the VA hospital and when they get there. Jody(corey's dad) told them that the doctor told him with him having to have a blood transfusion every week that he had about 2 months to a year to live. It hit the boys pretty hard because these two boys lived and breathed every word and thing their dad said to be the truth. They worship the ground he walks on. Yes they might of disagreed from time to time but thats their father. Corey's talked to him a few times and on this Monday me and him had a fight and he left to go see his parents. Well, he sat down and told his dad how he felt things should go when he passes. Like what to do with the land, guns and other personal things that he has. Corey came home and told me that they are going to have family meeting on sunday with just the kids. I hope that it doesn't get out of control and that they can be sensible about it. I know its hard to watch your parent die. I'm doing my best to be as strong as I can for corey but its so hard to watch a grown man cry without just boo hooing with him. Weve had our share of tears shed together since last week.
I told corey that i hope that he doesn't have to suffer as long as my grandmother did. Death isn't something that you can prepare for, i don't care how much youve tried you can't possibly prepare for it.
Thats the scoop of what has been going on in my life. I just want corey to know that i love him with all my heart and im going to be by his side thru it all. I don't plan on leaving him hanging when his father does pass. im gonna be right here ready to cry with him. I just hope im able to give him the support he needs. I know that its gonna hurt and im gonna have to be a strong person. I want to take a moment and say this much. Welcome Home Jody. Welcome Home.