Memories

It's amazing how one text, one message or just one word can bring up so many memories of days gone by and water under the bridge! I miss those days and the people in the memories! This is weird to some but maybe someone reading it can relate! I was playing words with friends and one of the words a friend played was fart and yes that's a funny word but it brought up a memory that made me smile! Cause it was one that I truly had thought was stored deep! But anyways enough about that! On to another things as the days get longer the more my mind wonders off to a far away place! It's been awhile since I've wondered this far away! It hurts to know that I've chosen this path and I might never walk that path again! I'm missing having that person on the other side of the fence! Main reason I miss that person is cause I'm longing for someone to hold me! It might sound crazy but when I'm depressed al I want is someone to hold me and play with my hair or just rub my back nothing sexual just truly hold me like I'm a little kid! It's sad that I don't have that with my husband cause he feels it's all about sex! I just sometimes wanna tell him I'm going to find me a woman to hold me! But I know he's gonna think I'll fall in love then I'll start cheating again! But really that's not what I feel like! I honestly believe that I might be passed that part then again it's not like it's a light switch! But truly I wish I could find just someone to hold me! Peace

When you feel blue!!!!!!

There's a slight breeze blowing, a nice gentle one the sun is shining the birds are chirping why must you feel so blue! Well many things happen in a persons life that know one knows! The past few weeks I've gone thru a deep depression I'm slowly coming out of it! I feel as if I was just sad cause aunt Brenda passed but then come to thank if it I've bend sad for a while now! Thinking back I see that my sadness comes from the inability to do anything!  My knees hurt my body hurts! Sometimes I just wanna Give up! Giving up is easy way out! I've never given up on anything in my life and dont plan to start at this moment either! I shall continue on and I will get passed this! Beautiful day for a swing! Yelp that's where I am! 

Gardening 2014

A few weekends ago Corey built me a raised garden bed! I was so excited cause now I don't have to bend over to keep the garden! I've got it all planned out and today we added the dirt and potting soil! And planted the things we had planted inside to start sprouting we added them to the garden bed! We've had so much fun but it's work lots of work! I'm excited hope I have lots of stuff! Anyways few pictures of my garden! 

Brenda Palmertree

Gone too early! We never know when our time will come that the trumpet will sound and The Lord will call us home! We never know why he decides to take the ones he does! But on March 1, 2014 at 3:26am The Lord called my precious aunt Brenda home to be reunited with her long lost father and a brother that was taken to early too! I have so many memories of her and so many times I wish we would of gotten more time with each other! A wonderful down to earth person and one that loved life no matter what the circumstances where! She faces life with an open mind and heart and took what ever The Lord threw at her to test her or just to see how much she could stand! She's gone from this earth and gained a heavenly body free of pain, free of strife and free of drama! She loved collecting arrow heads and I remember the best time of my childhood was trekking the trace I'm search of arrow heads! I wish I knew now what they meant to her and what she's done with them over the years! I feel certain she's was seated at the right hand of The Lord tonight having a heavenly supper! I feel like heaven gained another soul that will brighten everyone's day! Not only do I know have several angels watching over me! First was my grandmother Langham, she was my best friend, she loved me for me and I loved her for her, second was my uncle Paul Ray he was the closes thing to a grandfather I ever had! He taught me how to play cards, he taught me how to honor and respect others always! Next was memaw my step grandmother who accepted me into her family like I had always been there!  Always knew when I needed a good laugh and would call me at that moment! Next is my aunt Jeanette aka gruddy she had an infectious smile that would light up a room when she entered! She knew how to have a good time! And last but not least of the few that I've mentioned is aunt Brenda! Wow, where do I begin! She had a laugh that when you heard it you would always know it was her! She loved life and lived life to the fullest! Never failing to say I love you no matter what! She's a hero in my eyes for accepting that life was one to be cherished and one that is to be lived with out regrets! May all these and the rest that's gone before me rest in heavenly peace! I've got many more and so many gone too young! Uncle Tommy, Cousin Jimmy, Cousin Lisa, Aunt Sue, great Aunt kris, and so many more that I can't think of at the moment! Some I never got to meet! Some I wish I could of! And sometimes I wish heaven had a road of a bean stalk like in jack and the bean stalk cause id climb that bean stalk just to see then once again! But you know when someone passes it's not a good bye it's a see you soon or so long! I left out one angel that took me in his heart and allowed me to marry is son! He was stubborn, love able, caring and stubborn! He had a sense of humor that sometimes would make you blush and others make you laugh so hard you'd piss your pants! Ol' Jody he was a brave ol' soul that was set in his ways! I hope that aunt Brenda gets to meet him in heaven cause them too will be fun to be around! Good night world! My mind is at ease that I know I'll see them again!