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Just a few pics I've found that's funny!

Confused

Thanksgiving Was a great day! Im confused about my feelings towards someone! I feel like I've wanted to feel for a while! I just don't know! It feels right then again it feels wrong! I just need to sit back and look around AND smell the roses! A little attention given goes a long ways when none is given at home! Im confused on what my heart is saying and what im Truly feeling! My heart says Its love my mind says its not! I just don't know! I hate this feeling! Ugh ugh ugh

Thoughts

As the days of this year comes closer to an end! I feel like I've let my freaking heart out to freaking quick! Fuck Christy why the Fuck did you do that shit again! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! I Just don't understand

Testing

Today I had an upper GI done and then he said its looks Norma but they did a few biopsy's to test for other things! Im in some pretty major pain tonight!
I think the next blog I write will be where I got a divorce from this man that im married too! I just feel like he thinks im faking it cause his mom said Tonight that She though I was too! I just don't get it! Hell if I was faking I wouldnt go thru all I go thru on a daily basis! And I wouldn't be here fighting for my right to live! I'd killed myself long time ago! Ugh! This man called me a baby and said I was spoiled cause I was given too all my life! Hell by Who everything I got I paid for! One way are another I paid for it! Just don't understand! Ugh im sick and head is about to explode so blog this is short good fucking Night

Where to begin

Its been a rough couple of weeks and as the weeks progress on it ain't getting better! Life is throwing me so damn many curve balls it ain't funny! Im just trying to knock them out of the park but I can't seem to make it past first base! But ill get it out sooner or later! But, I guess its gonna Take lots of energy that I don't Have at the moment! Ill gain my strength back one day! Just gotta be patient!

If your reading this and are remotely interested in women not only sexually but friendly too then comment before or email me at rebelpride77@gmail.com!
Im in search of a female friend that I can hold, snuggle up too, talk too, and hang out with when im bored and lonely at home! I need a companion that will listen when I need to vent, let me please her, and on occasion whine and dine her! I don't think im a bad person! I think my big heart gets in the way too much because I care a lot and its too much for ppl at times I think! Im not happy in my marriage and im really trying to be but when you don't feel the love back its hard to be happy! But I guess that's why im seeking that someone that will show me the love im missing and have missed all my life! My mom and dad alike just pushed me away! So I Never had that love that I've wanted or needed! If you want a friend that cares about you and can offer benefits too them email me!

Now that's out of the way time to rest my tired bones and body! Night all!

Racing mind shall it ever stop

I guess its just a way of life for me! I lay down and my mind seems to think of 1000 things that keep me awake! Some say its God telling me to stop and think and praise him! Others tell me that its cause I took a nap! I feel its the nap! Well the things on my mind are things that I should never ever Think about! Suicide! That's what's going thru my mind at the moment! Ugh! Well I don't have nothing more to say! Peace