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Its been quite a journey over these past few months! I've learned many lessons! I've stared the devil in his eyes, I've fell to the deepest place I've ever been! I've been literally in hell! It was a trip I care not to take anymore! I've lost a friend/stepmom, father/asshole and almost my husband! I guess you could really say that I've lost one whole side of my family with the exception of a few from that side! Its ok though because they'll need me before I need them! I guess that time will tell if I forgive and forget what that man did to me and the pain I've caused him and his dear wife! Its been along time coming I just couldn't find the time to do it but when I did I knew what I was losing! I didn't really lose a father because he's never really been a father anyway! To everywife he's ever had he was a father to her kids but to his own he was another deadbeat dad! Its just that's my feelings! Any man that sexually molested their own daugther whether it be 20yrs ago or 2 days ago its still not right! But its ok because when it all came out I felt a sense of relief that I've never felt before! I felt like my body had been healed and really in truly somethings had been healed! But, I'm keeping my head up because my friend cheryl told me one day christy you've lived thru the tough times and you survived don't do anything stupid! So I didn't, I'm a much stronger person because of it! I've learned many things! The ones you call friends may not really be friends! On to the next thing I've started a new chapter in my book of life! Its called "keep it moving!" that's my new motto if your in my life to try to bring me down then keep it moving! If your in my life to ruin my marriage then keep it moving! If your not in my life to share my joy then keep it moving! I'm not going back to where I used to be! I'm not going to stare the devil in the eyes again! Once was enough! Just like I just said I told the devil to keep it moving! I aint got time for your ass in my life! Now that I'm a changed person I've got to learn to kick a few people out my life that might cause me some issues! I've got one pretty much on the same page as me and the other one I just need to tell her to kick rocks and keep it moving! I'm not one to break off a realationship, friendship or anything but I've got to step up and do it! Well, blog my fingers hurt cause as usual I'm in bed typing this out on my phone! Good nite all and peace out!