sometimes in life

Since the last time I wrote in this blog I've had a death in my family! Unfortunatly I was at home when she died so I didn't get to say good bye! The one good thing that has happened is that I have gained a great friend! I love spending time with her, she makes me laugh! She makes me smile and forget about all the bad happening in my life right now! Thank you kiersten for helping me out of the slump that I've been in! Without you I'm not sure that I'd still be pushing on like I am! My family, you and my facebook friends have supported me so much that I'd never be able to rethank you all! So thanks to all for the loving support you've given me! Kiersten, you came in my life at a rough time but you helped me thru it all! My step grandfather is in the hospital with lung cancer! So I'm trying my best to make the best of it and not think about the death that's about to happen! I don't want him to go but I feel like he's ready so I'm ready! Good nite blog! I love you all! Thanks kiersten I love you too! Thanks family and friends! I love you all too!!

friends

Over the past few days, I've come to really enjoy the time I've spent with my new friend! Its been so nice to have someone to talk to! Someone to listen to my feelings! Its been a true blessing that she came into my life! She's helped me move on without looking back! Now, times are tough for us but that's life sometimes! I've had to pick the pieces of my heart up! Its still scared and probably will always be! Thanks! You've been a great person! Thanks for the time we've had with a few drinks! I love beer but it don't love me! Well good nite blog! I must roll over now!

weak

I'm weak, I'm tired of fighting a losing battle! I feel that I can't continue on! I lost my best friend to lies and now I must move on! With good support from my family and friends that are true then, I'm slowly picking up the pieces! My husband is great! I thank god every day that I found him those 7 yrs ago! Its been a rough 7 yrs but we managed to hang on! No one ever said life was easy, no one said life would be a dream! I love u baby! Your great thanks for it all! Your a wonderful addition to my family! All things get better with time! It heals all wounds! But, corey is telling me to put that damn phone down and go to sleep lol! Cause my blackberry is my life! I told missy well u have be offically deleted out of my life! Me and carol laugh cause its true she was! My blackberry doesn't bare nuthing to remind me of her! Love to all, peace to all! And to all a good night!

time to move on

There comes times in our life that we just know its time to move on past something that is holding us back from doing something or getting something we want! So this time has come and I'm ready to move on! I'm just tired of hurting, tired of pushing on! I've decided the thing I'm moving on from is this thing they call RA! I'm tired of it ruling my life! Its taken all its going to take out of me! I'm going to push it out the door! I'm fixing to start back riding my bike, and doing things to keep the inflamation down! Might even lose some weight in the process! But anyway that's my thoughts good nite all! Thanks for the support!

rip mamaw

RIP Mamaw

Memories fill the spot in my heart u left open!

Time heals all wounds but it never heals the scar!

Scars last forever, they might scab over but never fully heal!

Thanks for the precious moments we had! Without you in my life, no telling where I'd be!

My heart still has a piece missing as does everyones heart! I never let anyone try to patch that hole up!

No one on earth can replace you, nor can they take away my love for you!

I need you now more than ever! But when I need you I just pray! Love you mamaw! Miss you dearly!

gulf shores

As I sit here on the back ledge over looking the ocean! I hear the waves crashing into the shore and the wind blowing the huge palm tree in front of me!! Its the soothness sound I've ever heard! I didn't realize until I was sitting here how sweet the sound was! I never want to leave but its back to reality! Yea I'm a little drunk as I write this! But the feeling of alcohol running thru ur blood is great feeling! We get things done we didn't know we could get done! I just packed all my bags and cleaned the whole condo up! But I don't wanna leave!

Another Poem(deep thoughts)

Before you read this blog. I have been depressed lately. When im down i write like im blue. I seem to write better when im down and out than i do when im up and happy. Do you think that its something telling me that I need to move on. Its not meant for anyone right now. I just had to put my feelings down on paper.

You never know until its to late

As I sit here thinking about the moments we had,
the times we spent together.
I never thoughtthis day would come that I would say goodbye.
I didn't realize it until it was too late,
i never thought you would ever leave me,or betray me.
I know that I have hurt you.
Its never to late to tell someone how you feel,
its never to late until they are gone for good.
Then its too late, no turning back.
You never will know how much I loved you.
Cause you never gave me a chance to tell you.
Maybe one day you will see that I was the only one
that still loved you and wanted to keep you here!
I maybe gone in your life but your still here in my mind.
The memories of us plays thru my head constantly,
hoping that one day you will come back.